To be a Vampire

I'm sitting in the dark.

Well, typing, thinking.

"I want to be a Vampire",

It's my long time dream.

I want to be a Vampire when I was 25,

Because I think it's a good age to be one.

Not so old, not very young, just right.

But, when I was 25 I have dreams, ambitions.

The problem is I don't know how to reach them, to get them.

So now, I'm 30, no job and just sitting in the dark.

I have someone. That someone loves me and vice versa.

My someone is always there, always.

Never gave up on me, even in my darkest times. 

Isn't she wonderful?

I met her when I was 21.

She made me want to be a vampire more than ever.

To spend the rest of eternity with her is what I wanted.

It was a part of my dream.

Years passed and we went through everything.

Everything that can ruin anything that love stands for.

We would talk for hours and sleep together.

We were inseparable.

Until it all went wrong.

The hours and hours of talking shortened,

until there was none.

The once inseparable, now gone.

I left her so many times, but she's always there. 

Never wavered. Never gave up.

I hurt her so much, but when she sees me

she'll always give me the sweetest smile,

the most loving smile you'll ever see.

And whenever I would see that smile,

I just want to hold her hand and feel it against my face.

And feel the warmth of what feels like home.

I wanted to be a Vampire because of her,

only her.

It doesn't makes sense, I know.

If you were being loved by someone as magnificent as her,

everything doesn't makes sense.

It starts from the moment that she loved me.

How could a person as wonderful as she loves me?

It makes no sense at all.

After all that she went through,

all the pain, all the suffering - 

she's still here, beside me

and loving me endlessly.

This is for you, for all you've been through...

I love you.. and thank you.. for loving me..

Endlessly.. and Unconditionally..